The human heart is a God-shaped vacuum—Pascal said that—and it's designed for God to fill. And if we have small views of God, and inadequate perceptions of his greatness and his glory and his love for us and his sufficiency for us, then there will be big cavernous places in our souls. And they will be churning out these desires that are just huge and controlling, whether it's a spouse or sexual things or money or praise of man or revenge.-john piper

my heart is a God-sized vacuum and only God can fill it. i need to let that sink in and absorb. my heart is a God-sized vacuum and only God can fill it. my heart is a God sized vacuum and only God can fill it. cant you just picture how different your life would be if you truly believed this??

alright, update on life. i have a lot to catch up on, so here we go!

first semester of college is almost over and it went by so quickly. i almost have all a's. that is something i never thought i would say, especially in college, haha.

ive made some more new friends. yes, ive made friends, mostly from epic. im glad i've met some good people. they are pretty much all korean!

(first picture is with the afters! and second pic is after i cut emily's hair. i cut a girl's hair! she was brave. last pic is at the bowling alley to celebrate joanns 19th birthday)

in about a half a year, i will have a total of 4 nephews/nieces. can you believe that? we are rapidly expanding the hsueh dynasty here in america. i think i may be the only person my age who has this many nephews and nieces. sabrina and pei are both currently pregnant, but i dont know if they are boy or girls yet.
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(little hsueh babies. can you believe that they're only a month apart? look at the size differences!)

ive been getting pretty involved with epic, which is the asian branch off of campus crusade. it's the first year its on our campus and it is relatively small. god has blessed me with lots of opportunities to lead and serve. for example, ryan and i started leading worship a couple weeks ago and now a couple other people are stepping out to help serve! i will also be helping to facilitate a small group next semester for guys where we will read and discuss the book "wild at heart" by john eldridge, and the girls group will be reading the book captivating, by john eldridge as well. im excited and really looking forward to it! i want to start now, but unfortunatly, with mid terms, finals, and christmas break coming up, a lot of things can change. so we've decided that it's best to wait and start fresh next semester.

i've been attending two churches almost regularly...at least when im not in austin or back in houstin. alamo stone, which meets on saturdays, is affiliated with our campus crusade. so me, along with the rest of the asian group have been going there. occasionaly we go to gracepoint on sundays which is really good too. im so tired of church hopping!

lately, i've really scared about the future - more now than ever. like going to ut, switching environments and having to completely readjust my academic and social habits. im starting to like the way things are here and i am dreading change. at the same time, im excited about going to ut. im also really scared about the major i want to do. i want to do graphic design (like pam beasley), but i hear its really hard to get into, so ive been looking at advertising as an alternative.

thats it for now. i have a paper due in a week where i can write about ANYTHING. i hate these kind of papers. i have absolutely no idea what to write. its a definition essay which means we define a word and then write about it. i think i will write about "church".